The Day I Got Cancer
What will you do if you were to diagnosed with cancer? and the doctor tell you that you only left about six month to live? what is your reaction towards this big news? what exactly will you do next or you expect you will do? hearing the news might already make your soul dies already anyway.
It does not have to be cancer. Maybe another live-threatening and fatal disease like serious heart problem, AIDS or perhaps rare disease like spinocerebellar degeneration? (1litre of tears)
It is not only a soap drama featured in television though but now you will be the hero of the tragic story. Are you going to cry your lung out ? or accept the reality? or going against it to find the miracle of science and technology?
(-well yeah,there's always hope)
Have you ever wonder about all this? I bet YES.
First thing, first.
If I am to know I am dying, I want take this chance to apologize and gratefully thanking my parent, grandparents, siblings, relatives, teachers, friends and even my enemy (Do I have any?wonder). All of you make my days. Thank You Very Much (*slightly bow). I also want to pay or give back anything I borrowed either money or other things to the one I owe. And the utterly most important is repenting myself to Allah Almighty. I have done so many sins day and night yet Allah still give me many bliss that never can be count. Indeed He is our Lord and I am only a servant that is often forgot about her duty as a servant. Astaghfirullah Hal A'zim..
"so glorify the Praises of your Lord, and ask His forgiveness. Verily He is the one who accepts the repentance and who forgives" (an-Nashr:3)
Secondly, If I can and it will not be a burden to anyone, I want to fulfill my desire and dream. Some of it is I want to go to Umrah and Hajj. Although it sounds a long way to go, I want to go there please for even once in a life time. Hajj is a compulsory for each muslim. Beside that, I also want to go oversea and visit another country. I want to go to Korea, Japan, Turkey, Egypt, France, China, Indonesia, Thailand, Singapore, NZ, Aussi, Italy.. (well, why don't I list all country)
What I just wrote doesn't mean I were to give up my live. It just a changes towards positive attitude. I think it is best I never give up in having treatment and be more optimistic. At least I am given the chance to make preparation right?
There's no guarantee for us to have tomorrow. So always be prepared and live life to the fullest. (Perhaps you can just think or pretending that you have cancer right now and start doing all thing you must and you want to do will ya?)
Give your best shot.
p/s: No I don't have cancer right now and God forbid later. It's only me and my imagination after watching 'Scent of a women'.
